GRGR(20) "Young Fool"

[Lorentzen / Nicklaus]

joseph schrieb:

> Like the habit of avoiding recognition of something or someone that has
> been passed over, which yet persists, somehow, surreptitiously, in the very
> habit of avoidance... 


  "after a time, i got up from the floor. i walked around and became joyfully at 
  the room. the love-blissful, unthreatened current of the 'bright' emanated 
  freely and unqualifiedly from my heart, and not a pulse of it was limited by 
  my otherwise conditional existence or the existence of the world. i had 
  acquired a totally new understanding. i understood narcissus and the entire 
  cycle of suffering and search. i saw the meaning of my entire striving life to 
  that moment. suffering, seeking, self-indulgence, the seeker's spirituality, 
  and all the rest were founded in the same primary motivation and error. it was 
  the  a v o i d a n c e   o f   r e l a t i o n s h i p. that was it! that was 
  the chronic and continuous source and characteristic of all egoic activity. 
  indeed, the ego was revealed to be  o n l y  an  a c t i v i t y, not an 
  'entity'. the 'entity', the separate 'person' (or ego-'i'), was revealed to be 
  only an illusion, a mere presumption in mind and feeling, resulting from the 
  self-contraction, the egoic reaction, the single egoic act of the total 
  body-mind. the ego, the separate and separative 'i', is the chronic (and total 
  psycho-physical) avoidance of relationship. thus, human beings are forever 
  suffering, seeking, indulging themselves, and manipulating their lives for the 
  sake of some unknown goal in eternity.
  the human trouble showed itself to be entirely determined by this one process 
  of avoidance, or total psycho-physical self-contraction. it was the source of 
  separation and un-love, the source of doubt and un-reality, of qualification 
  and loss. but, in fact, there is only relationship, only love, only 
  unqualified relatedness, only the unqualified living condition of reality. 
  therefore, i knew that reality itself could always be directly realized in 
  life, if the self-contracting (or separative) reaction in life was exceeded by 
  the unqualified assumption of relatedness in all the moments of living." 

                             (avatar adi da: the knee of listening, pp. 199f.)

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