answering rj/rjackson/jbor/? re emailers Re: pynchon-l-digest V2#2207

[barbara100 at jps.net]

You're better looking than I imagined you, Doug.  Anybody that smart I
thought was bound to be ugly. But not you. Flatten down the hair like you
did in Shanghai, shrink the glasses a size or two, carry a well-worn copy of
Gravity's Rainbow around with you,  and you'd be the guy I fantasize about
jumping on the morning train.

I don't know which is funner--stroking Doug's ego the way I do, or 'pissing
on' the pride of those who hate  him so vehemently.  No, I don't wish anyone
to feel bad, but  I have to wonder why it should make anybody feel bad that
I do.  Some of you felllas get so riled up you say crazy things--you accuse
me of *being*  him,  you harass  me and tell me I'm dumb,  or try to beat me
down into a 'good woman'ly position; sometimes you just tell me to shut up
all together.  (Talk about high morality, look what Terrance said to me when
I told him what we could do with his 'gang-bang' rhetoric if he wanted to.
And just after asking if he was a misogynist.  He couldn't have answered me
better. ) I guess I really am an attention lover.  Terrance was right about
me there.  And by all rights I should be  excited in all the fuss.  Except
this isn't really about me at all--this is all about Doug and some
*blinding* hatred of him.  I'm not put off, though.  I find it all rather
interesting, even if I'm not the center of attention.  I keep thinking how
Pynchon wove these weird personality traits into his characters. And how I
might find some of them in me.  And how some of you are such excellent
exercises for my patience. I'm seeing results of that already. The other day
I had a violent fantasy about punching Terrance in the nose--me, a woman who
doesn't even kill  spiders--wanted to punch that little fucker straight up
in the nose!  My passion really surprised me; and it embarrassed me; I took
it as a sign that I should be very mindful of the degree to which I let
people affect me.  If there's anything I want to learn in life, it's to
control myself.




----- Original Message -----
From: Doug Millison <millison at online-journalist.com>
To: <pynchon-l at waste.org>
Sent: Tuesday, October 30, 2001 4:35 PM
Subject: answering rj/rjackson/jbor/? re emailers Re: pynchon-l-digest
V2#2207


> I post from millison at online-journalist.com.  Briefly last spring and
summer
> I posted from nopynching at yahoo.com when I was working in another office in
> San Francisco, and I signed my posts with my name, Doug Millison.  If
you'd
> like to see a picture of me, click serious ,
> <http://www.online-journalist.com/doug.jpg>, smiling
> <http://www.online-journalist.com/Doug2.jpg>, Tiananmen Square
> <http://www.online-journalist.com/tiananmen.jpg>,  or Shanghai
> <http://www.online-journalist.com/shanghai.jpg>.  Yeah, I know they're not
> very good, but I put them up there for my relatives, and to let people see
> me before they hire me for a writing, editing, or consulting gig.
>
> As I said before, I suggest you worry about firming up your own identity
> instead of worrying about other people.  How many email accounts do you
> post from?  What about that little slothrop667 to slothrop668 exchange
> earlier today?  Was that, in fact, you and Malign?  If not, who was it?
> Oh, you don't know?  Why don't you know? Or, are you just falsely claiming
> that you don't know?  If you don't post under other names, why is it that,
> over the years, a host of  anonymous jokers has chimed in to join your
> various attacks on Charles Hollander, Terrance, me, and others?  I'm
> certainly not the only person to note that you hide behind an anonymous
> email account:   Derek Maus, when you and kai were taunting him with
> anti-Semitic slurs a year ago, said the same.
>
> Given the number of people you've insulted on Pynchon-L over the years, it
> comes as absolutely no surprise to me that there are anonymous emailers
who
> trash you, sometimes savagely.    What goes around, comes around, as they
> say; you get what you give.
>
> rj/rjackson/jbor/?
> >Another simple question, Doug: How many different email accounts have you
> >opened to post to the list from? 4 or 5? More than 10?!
>
>
>
> Doug Millison - Writer/Editor/Web Editorial Consultant
> millison at online-journalist.com
> www.Online-Journalist.com