"resurrection of the body"

[Glenn Scheper]

> http://www.themodernword.com/pynchon/pynchon_essays_cholera.html
> This novel is also revolutionary in daring to suggest that
> vows of love made under a presumption of immortality --
> youthful idiocy,
> to some --
> may yet be honored,
> much later in life when we ought to know better,
> in the face of the undeniable.

Yes, I live that very vow situation myself.

I met my wife in a local joint, during my first starting
to get out as I was recovering from the several serious
years of mental illness. She brought to me a new, frank
experience of life I had never know as an avoidant youth.

After she left after a month or so, I remember well,
I got down on my knees, moreso, I was facing the sun,
but got down to baby pose--I was facing my penis too.
I prayed, "Lord, if you will bring her to me, I will
love and keep her forever."

Well, some unspeakable thing happened to her, and she
came back to me. And I've been leaving her ever since.

She is my sixth, as I count off the Revelation phases.
I am myself self-referentially the seventh, and there's
no other eighth coital partner in the book, unless like
the days cycle in weeks, it's Christ on the white horse
at the end of the book, which resembles the first seal,
with its white horse, that represents a coital partner.

Since then, the often degeneration into upleasant abuse
has cause me to flee often, but never yet permanently.
Hell, I'm dating her now. We went to Santa Anita last
weekend, and I gave her big binoculars, something she
has long wanted, and a CD, and she took me home, and....

Twenty four years of struggle has caused me seek every
possible alternative meaning to subvert and revise the
words: love, keep, and forever.

My first long away was after I sware myself unto truth,
and many times I weighed that a higher oath--to explore
and exposit fully for the world a tantric understanding
of Christ--than my prior vow of love.

Even as I went through these past weeks of a spiritually
directed walk-about, I considered the end-of-the-world
symbolism and tasks as a higher good, and read in Dante,
Beatrice's exposition early in _Paradise_, on replacing
one vow only with a substantively greater vow.

But, to my surprise, the world didn't end on Yom Kipper.
"For yet the end shall be at the appointed"--Dan 11:27.
I had prior computed 9-11-2001 + 1260 days or 2-22-2005,
and I am still looking forward to that. But I came away
with a panoply of symbols, which I am slowly writing up
for You!

Yours truly,
Glenn Scheper
http://home.earthlink.net/~glenn_scheper/
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