TPPM _The Gift_: Sentence 7: abyss sense: 9 of 10

[Glenn Scheper]

http://www.pynchon.pomona.edu/uncollected/gift.html

I may be hurting some literary meaning of poetic, but I recognize
that same root in auto-poesis, meaning self-organizing, and one
thing that poets and prophets definitely are, is self-organizing.

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There is also the idea of pheromones, that complete semantic concepts
may be conveyed by odors, especially, as are sent/scent from another
person. TAFKAP, The Artist Formerly Known As Prince, whom I recognize
as another fellow by his renaming attempt, his interviews and lyrics,
mentions pheromones in some of his erotogenetic lyrics.

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I say that recognizing the pose of autofellatio is crucial to
detecting its metaphors: That the natural discovery position is
with head on the ground, wherein body weight flexes the neck to
yield a sudden advantage. This would be Atlas, bearing the earth
on his shoulders. This is the pose celetrated in Baudelaire's
poem, _Carrion_, and in Shelley's poem, _Ozymandias_,
and bodily form of all Hell in Dante's _The Divine Comedy_,
and in not a few other poems and scriptures. It makes the sky
God's throne, His genitals a bird, and His mouth the abyss.

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(Re: The Ancient of Days: Deity or Manna Machine?)

He clearly did not recognize autofellatio, but he has
concentrated some good data that I will re-interpret.

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I was spinning theories in a vacuum on a sample of one: The only
person to whom I mentioned this was a psychiatric aid when I got
taken to the hospital, and he then banged me up against the wall
to be sure that I knew that talking about such things was taboo.
(Damn him!) So I never brought it up with my student therapists,
and the VA doctors only ever talked about meds. (Damn them all!)

For the next 10 or 15 years, I only found AF parallels in Jesus.
Then I recognized AF in Aleister Crowley, and stridently in the
works of Austin Osman Spare, like Self Love, and Focus of Life.
(I remember searching for him yielded mostly Texas tire stores.)
In '98, when I shared my first tantric anecdote on some "ARCANA"
mailing list, no search engine returned any hit for autofellatio.

Anyway, from my sample of one, I gathered evidence about fellows,
mostly poets and prophets across all epochs, and my criteria for
recognizing them included that they used metaphors that resemble
AF, and/or that they speak of some death-and-rebirth experience.

The first incompatible evidence was when I saw the autofellatio
forum grew over 1000 (now probably 10000) readers, and they were
not interested in such mental annihilation, or metamorphosis, or
psychosis that I thought was a necessary part of the AF package.

So I always felt I was in some boundary niche between homosexual
and heterosexual, but now I see I represent a way smaller group,
the subset of all AF, who also had psych problems. Still, it's a
nice enough category to mark, bound and describe. (I am in it!)

Of the females, I already shared here how Emily Dickinson's poems
fit both my descriminants: They are mostly about autocunnilingus,
and also describe existential dread, sacrifice, death-and-rebirth.

But when I discovered the female AC poet Edna St. Vincent Millay,
she was quite the opposite type: assertive, sexually liberated,
no hint of existential doubt. So much so, I almost excluded her.

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Yours truly,
Glenn Scheper
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