TMoP_Ch1_Pg4a

[Glenn Scheper]

As you recall from pp 1-3, I am trying to see everything
as kind of a fractal overlay on sexual bodily functions,
and esp. for D a christic incarnation as son-of-oneself.

D is now by himself in the room/womb of A.

"thinking: his ghost, entering me" D as fetus is being
filled up by the spirit/principle/DNA of self-as-father.

"He draws the chair to the window and sits gazing out.
Dusk is falling, deepening. The street is empty. Time
passes; his thoughts do not move. Pondering, he things -
that is the word. This heavy head, these heavy eyes: lead
settling into the soul."

I posited anus as window on street. A seat, or throne,
after much vacillation, I figured must be located under
the buttocks, not the genital. By my two-bodily-circuit
theory, suckling breasts is equivalent to being anally
sodomized by the suckee's genital, or less drastically,
positioned. Hence, the baby who will be suckled by the
mother has the mother ('s genital) as its throne. But
here D has just been conceived. His window is inside a
womb. Dusk is falling as other semen (light) vanishes.
The street for him is womb. Whatever one might think
while pre-existing, he is now tied to a body lacking
yet a brain to think. His whole (and thought) process
is now one of cells doubling, a fetus getting heavier.

"The woman, Anna Sergeyevna, and her daughter are
having supper, sitting across the table from each other
with the lamp between them. They fall silent when he
enters.
  'You know who I am?' he says.
  She looks steadily at him, waiting.
  'You know, I mean, that I am not Isaev?
  'Yes, we know. We know Pavel's story.'"

Reparsing: The woman: (Anna Sergeyevna and her daughter).

Although there is an actual daughter M present, there is
a doubling sense in which Anna is in some sense herself
her own daughter. Whereas the son-of-self has tangled
the father and son in one body, a-ternally, out of time,
the female retains the notion of cyclic time, like the
nested dolls, like the monthly cycle:

 3:20 But Judah shall dwell for ever,
 and Jerusalem from generation to generation.
 3:21 For I will cleanse their blood that I have not cleansed:
 for the LORD dwelleth in Zion.
  -- file://\i\kn\29_joel.txt

I kept that last line of Joel in case it speaks to me later.

table and lamp: In Revelation, candlestick(/church) is
actually gk luchnya, which I read is a table or a stand
to support a lamp (like an oil lamp). So here in TMoP we
see those revelation symbols...

1:20 The mystery of the seven stars which thou sawest in my right hand, and the 
seven golden candlesticks. The seven stars are the angels of the seven churches: 
and the seven candlesticks which thou sawest are the seven churches.

4:5 And out of the throne proceeded lightnings and thunderings and voices: and 
there were seven lamps of fire burning before the throne, which are the seven 
Spirits of God.

(Later the Lamb gains, I posit from a doubling/mapping/oneness/
similitude/metaphoric-spiritual act of touching female breasts
but afterwards masturbating alone:)
5:6 And I beheld, and, lo, in the midst of the throne and of the four beasts, 
and in the midst of the elders, stood a Lamb as it had been slain, having seven 
horns and seven eyes, which are the seven Spirits of God sent forth into all the 
earth.)

If I were to solidify an idea now, the father and son
though one are polarized especially on penis and mouth;
Then I'd expect mother/daughter to be polarized in one
body on vagina and mouth. As she/they are having supper,
(discounting an Emily Dickinson possibility of AC) I'd
say self-suckling, SS, is the referent in view here.

So between them are clitoris, navel, breasts. Hmmm...
That SS positions a woman before/behind herself, anus
to genital, like one torso upon a four-legged horse,
and my recent while at the bikini bar revealed sight
of that favored woman as if squating over a flame;
I'm going to assign flame (cf. fervant) to genital,
or better, peri-genital; then vagina is the lampstand
(as seat, by SS) and then breasts are table?... Damn...
Doesn't a female kind of remind you of Alladin's lamp?

"I am not Isaev" / "We know Pavel's story."

Jesus is his own father, but not implying he is Joseph.

Hamlet is his own father, but not implying he is Claudius.
(per my take that C best represents H's biological father.)

Biblical or mythological, the story is well known.
In fact, it is probably written in our very DNA,
which sometimes leaks across to logos, discourse.

Wow, less than 1/2 a page. Work approaches. BFN.

Yours truly,
Glenn Scheper
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