VL-IV sidebar - from the Lycaeum

[Michael Bailey]

http://leda.lycaeum.org/?ID=9146

I felt the breeze kiss my skin, and it was almost orgasmic. I almost
felt as though I had been touched by God. I felt like I was being
enveloped by all of nature. I remember sitting on the front steps,
enjoying all these new sensations, then looking at a few long blades
of grass that were blowing in the breeze. I started to believe they
were alive *and* aware, and that they were't just blowing in the
breeze but were stretching toward me, reaching out to me. I remember
reaching over to touch these blades of grass, then suddenly becoming
aware that I was in the midst of so much life. I began to feel like I
was so connected with all of life and nature. I think, at that moment,
I never felt more alive.

I think somehow during this trip, I also became more aware of my own
*im*mortality. I seem to remember thinking about dying, and for the
first time, it didn't really scare me because I seemed to be aware
that my soul somehow transcended anything physical....that in some
way, and I didn't know exactly in what way, that I would always exist.
I felt very thankful that God had put me on earth so that I may
experience the pleasures of having a body, and being able to see
beauty, and to hear music, and to experience physical love and
sensuous touch, which I feel are physical manifestations of the
spirit. I feel humans are as creative as we are because we have a
soul, it's our soulful outlet.

Anyway, the last time I tripped was, I think about 1985. By this time,
I had joined the rat race in a big way. I had bought a condominium,
and was working. I began to realise that I really couldn't do this
anymore. My life was no longer free and uncomplicated. When I would
try to trip, I would find myself becoming bogged down with worrisome
thoughts... such as getting the bills payed, making sure I did my
tasks at work, suddenly there was just too much responsibility, and I
felt I really needed to keep my mind sharp. Of all the drugs I had
done in my life, the only one I would like to do again if I got the
chance would be acid. I loved the way it made me think about things,
and I know there were a lot of earth-shattering conclusions that I had
made on some of my trips... many of them were forgotten by the time
the trip was over. I loved the way it enhanced the enjoyment of
listening to music, or listening to crickets, or listening to the
breeze. In some ways, I think that death is something like this. I
think that with death, because you are no longer tied to physical
binds, you become much more one with the universe, and you become
tuned into the true power and beauty of existance, but not in a
physical way ......Ahh.... but I'm rambling. ( I tend to do this...
must be all that LSD I ate. ; ) )...



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--Ahh.... but I'm rambling. ( I tend to do this... must be all that
LSD I ate. ; ) )...