NP: Reveries

[Glenn Scheper]

Part 3 of 3.

What I forgot to correlate of my Thankgiving tale,
is that I had some strong Idea that this related
to Revelation's Thyatira; then later, to Ephesus.

A brief google shows Diana (arteme, ishtar, bath,
isis, also possibly informed of earlier Ariadne)
was goddess of Ephesus, against which belief Paul
had to struggle. Archer, perpetual virgin, mother
of all living (church mapped onto Mary ~300 AD).

Now Ephesus / seal #1 to me is the first whore,
who sat on my lap till I had a hard-on, and was
orally explicit, saying, "Do you want to Fuck?"
I kind of liken the younger girl to this whore.

Rev 2: "But I have somewhat against you, because
you have left your first love. Remember from whence
you have fallen, and do the first works, or I will
come unto you quickly, and will remove your candle-
stick out of his place, except you repent."

This has been a challenging phrase to me, for I had
no love, no sexual experience before the first whore.
Was it that I 'forsook' the first whore herself, a
first love/sex coming so quickly on the first time,
that I had to choose with my last $6 whether to have
her remove her bra, or do it again? We did it again.

No, I think rather, whence I fell was the womb. So
my first love would be the implied coitus of being
a son-of-myself, from the first wet-dream in navel.

That would be Mom, and likeness of this elder girl;
The one taboo Freud identified central to society.

Of course, the return is postponed until after all
four whores, when AF triggered an acute psychosis
full of Oedipal imagery, entering a certain change
from the first four and final three of Revelation.

A great part of me wants to distance a biological
mother of Christ, to find cause to call her evil.
What sin could she have done to warp me so evilly?

Somehow, the young girl was my accomplice, as by
giving a "cold cup of water" (the cold potatoes),
and the first of these swords, the second mine:

31:8 Then shall the Assyrian fall with the sword,
not of a mighty man;
and the sword,
not of a mean man,
shall devour him:
but he shall flee from the sword,
and his young men shall be discomfited.
31:9 And he shall pass over to his strong hold for fear,
and his princes shall be afraid of the ensign,
saith the LORD,
whose fire is in Zion,
and his furnace in Jerusalem.

It recalls Nietzsche's plaint, ... already dead as
my father, while as my mother I am still living ...
http://psychematters.com/papers/atwood.htm

It recalls again, T. S. Eliot in Gerontion:
Signs are taken for wonders. "We would see a sign":
The word within a word, unable to speak a word,
Swaddled with darkness. In the juvescence of the year
Came Christ the tiger 

The pouring of something else into her pussy reminded
me too of the in-flight of birds, and painting, Nuit.

46:11 Calling a ravenous bird from the east,
the man that executeth my counsel from a far country:
yea, I have spoken it,
I will also bring it to pass;
I have purposed it,
I will also do it.
46:12 Hearken unto me,
ye stouthearted,
that are far from righteousness:
46:13 I bring near my righteousness;
it shall not be far off,
and my salvation shall not tarry:
and I will place salvation in Zion for Israel my glory.
47:1 Come down,
and sit in the dust,
O virgin daughter of Babylon,
sit on the ground:
there is no throne,
O daughter of the Chaldeans:
for thou shalt no more be called tender and delicate.
47:2 Take the millstones,
and grind meal:
uncover thy locks,
make bare the leg,
uncover the thigh,
pass over the rivers.
47:3 Thy nakedness shall be uncovered,
yea, thy shame shall be seen:
I will take vengeance,
and I will not meet thee as a man.
47:4 As for our redeemer,
the LORD of hosts is his name,
the Holy One of Israel.
47:5 Sit thou silent,
and get thee into darkness,
O daughter of the Chaldeans:
for thou shalt no more be called,
The lady of kingdoms.

Babylon is a 'cage of every unclean and hateful bird".

It seems to me essential difference of Christianity
and pagan religions, which employ mother-son pairs,
that Christ, transcended, or indeed, before, saying
"Who is my mother?" has shed this darkness. And yet,
on the cross, he re-assigned her as mother to John,
suggesting to me that any Son-of-Man must come to
know her. Damn, darkness, mother, a great paradox.

Yours truly,
Glenn Scheper
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