VL-IV Zoyd's wedding - what they might have been seeing

[Michael Bailey]

http://www.erowid.org/library/books_online/pihkal/pihkal068.shtml

Effects of DOM ("STP")
(with 2.3 mg) Mood elevation at 2-3 hrs. After 3 hours, emotional
effects become more pronounced, enhancement of color also. Very little
distortion of perception, no disorientation, no creeping or flowing,
but color enhancement considerable. The emotional content and empathy
for others was closer to mescaline than to amphetamine, a welcome
change. No suggestion of nausea at any time. Unable to sleep at ten
hours, so I took 3/4 grain Seconal. Headache and listlessness next
morning, probably due to the Seconal.

(with 3 mg) In the middle of the experience I found that I was able to
separate components of complex things so as to evaluate them
separately. There is no need to respect their normal purpose. The
sharpness of observation is enhanced, but one can focus at every
different depth of a thing or a concept. Colors are not just brighter;
there are more of them. There is a profoundness of meaning inherent in
anything that moves. A line of thought or a bit of personal history
ties the thinker to the objects that had been thought of, or once
experienced. It is this relationship that will prove productive. Not
like in a movie which is circular in its totalness, but as in true
life where the future is the result of your own involvement with
everything about you.

(with 4 mg) The first four hours were largely directed to the body.
There was a shuddering, and a tight jaw, and I am not particularly
motivated to talk to anyone. It is more arousing (like amphetamine)
than depressing (like phenobarb). I am feeling just a little sick at
the three hour point, but a bit of regurgitation clears this up. Then
at the fourth hour, it went totally outside of me.

************* I saw the clouds towards the west. THE CLOUDS!!! No
visual experience has ever been like this. The meaning of color has
just changed completely, there are pulsations, and pastels are
extremely pastel. And now the oranges are coming into play. It is a
beautiful experience. *****************************

Of all past joys, LSD, mescaline, cannabis, peyote, this ranks number
one. Normally I have no color effects with mescaline. A dynamic
experience. Feels good, too.

(with 5 mg) There was the magnification of light, color and odors. It
was all very pleasant and beautiful, except that I had an
overwhelmingly negative feeling. This at times grew to considerable
intensity, and I feel it was clearly due to anger. At times the
negativity disappeared completely, and I broke into the most
enjoyable, even hilarious experiences. I alternated about 50-50
between joy and discomfort. As the evening drew on, I became withdrawn
and pensive. It seemed clear that I had made all the wrong
decisions--choice of partner, place to live, isolation, no meaningful
activity. The greatest shocker was that my practice of meditation,
which is one of my central focuses, and which I thought had brought me
much peace and understanding, seemed to be a delusional solution to my
unhappiness and isolation. The experience continued unabated
throughout the night with much tension and discomfort. I was unable to
get any sleep. I hallucinated quite freely during the night, but could
stop them at will. While I never felt threatened, I felt I knew what
it was like to look across the brink to insanity.

(with 8 mg) The very quiet development picks up speed betweeen the
first and second hour. There is a rich curly-imaged eyes-closed show
that interlocks closely with music. It is occasionally an off-beat
fantasy and not directly knit together, and even occasionally
unenjoyable. But always intense and completely appropriate to the
music. There is a continuous thirst, and little urine. Napping seems
OK at 16 hours, but real sleep must wait until the 20 hour point.
Overall a rolling +++, and I am looking forward to a repeat some day.

(with 10 mg) If on this page I shall have expressed it to you then it
is true that DOM has the glory and the doom sealed up in it. All
that's needed to unseal it is to surround it with a warm living human
for a few hours. For that human for those hours all the dark things
are made clear.

(with 12 mg) The first awareness was at 30 minutes and it was in the
tummy. The development was extremely rapid, something more like LSD
than previously remembered. The body tremor feels like poisoning,
there is no escaping the feeling of being disabilitated, but at least
there is no nausea. This transition ended and the trauma cleared
completely at about the second hour. The music was exceptional, the
erotic was exceptional, the fantasy was exceptional. Listz's "A
Christmas Cantata #1," part 1, with eyes closed was an experience
without precedent. There were some residual effects still noted the
next day. This may be a bit much for me.

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"Feliz Navidad"