Lell be little

[Bled Welder]

Just a side note, this question has probably been batted around on here
enumerous, enumberable times.  Eons.

If "paraoia" happens to be....true--is it paranoia?  Or is it just paranoia
to, in this case, people who don't know the truth?

I mean without getting into systems of power, without injecting your own
epistemology onto the topic, what qualifies as paranoia?  Is it, well this
goes to power, I was initially trying for something more lofty, loftier, is
paranoia a thought that which the power of society does not officially
acknowledge?


On Sun, Jan 27, 2013 at 5:21 AM, Bled Welder <bledwelder at gmail.com> wrote:

> I came onto this thing, a year ago.  In the interym, I have spent a large
> portion of time, tyme, thyme, in jail.  I do not, smoke or in any way
> injust, crystal or cocaine.  I   do not have an angle.  Aye, mate, do not
> manipule fucking late people.
>
> But I am being Siriusly, like with a 50 solar light pound hammer, and I'm
> hammered, I shed (no light), half not, by 100, said that.  I've not had a
> drink in five hours.  Okay four.  Fourment.  Ferment.  Torment.  What's the
> term.  Investigated.  I am being very, Siriusly, watched.  Something, is
> attempting to control, my mind.  And actions.  The thing is, when They talk
> to me, They say They are only trying to help me.  But They come into my
> mother's house, and go into my bedroo, my sanctuary, etc.
>
> The thing is, I'm not a normal person.  For one thing, I'm really, really,
> ridiculoiudly, really, absurdly, really fucking good looking.  This, then,
> in itself, causes suspicioun.  I'm a suzzpekt.  *Unless*, They are who
> They say they are.
>
> But *then*, I'm two Further items, addshownly.  I'm personalitly wise,
> not particularly average either.  Then I'm fairly smart.  And then, three,
> one more, I don't, let's say, I'm not prone to modesty.  Christian baboon
> niceness.
>
> I am a fucking *god*.
>
> But here's the thing.  Are the creatures who are watching me, are They
> mere mortals, or are They....*here*?
>
> Obvuisly, seriously, nobody who is not utterly, in utero, programmed,
> anyone who is not entirely hypnotized ex nihilio guttero, gutter-brained,
> knows, who are creatures with *vision*, who can see, that we were *given* our
> consciousness, this civilization.  Plato, Aristotle, *knew* this.  Where
> did Plato get his sources.....from?  It takes *no* brain, to understand
> this.  None.  To figure out what the Giza plateau *is*.
>
> If you entertain, for one fucking second, that I'm deluded...---you're a
> stupid animal.  You are a demented mortal.  You are a chimpanzee.
>
> So.  Where was I?  Oh yes.  These notions, and giving with them my mind
> and it's personality, and then too, my fizzikal perfection, because I also
> frequent the gym, and eat right, and take vitamins and supplements, and you
> get what was, the Feds coming into my mother's house.
>
> Oh also, no wait, before I get to the whole point I began this rant about,
> this coming to terms:  They are on this list.  They are Watching.
>
> I got his postcard, litrally a postcard, hand adreesed and signed by the
> sherrif, informing me that there is a warrant for my arrest in his county.
>  Okay, the thing about this is, I don't even, have never heard, of this
> county.
>
> What is this, Friday, or Saturnday?  Anyway, the postcard, fair enough, I
> think it actually arrived Thursday, maybe even WEsday, I don't normly pick
> up the mail, and when I do I don't particullrly pay attention to it, and so
> if something striking occurs, it's, goes through, the hands of this old
> woman who claims to be my mother.  Of course she's my mother.  Who was my
> father, that's the question.  The postcard said that I have to call that
> county office before then, and that the warrant will be prosucted on the
> first on March.
>
> Anyway, I'm on parole, and I don't even know what county this is coming
> from.  It's somewhere in Kansas.  I grew up in a very nice suburb of Kansas
> City, but my suburb is on the Kansas side.  I lived my adult life in SF,
> LA, and NYC, all of which I love, and I have zero interest in being back in
> Central City with my mother.  Zilch.
>
> The maybe humus side is that, since I've been back to Central City, I've
> been either in jail or on parole.  When you're on parole....you can't leave
> the city. My family all went to Vegas for Christmas....I had to stay here,
> alone.
>
> That last couple paragraphs sounded pathetic.  I don't want empathy.  I
> could use some, but that wasn't the point.  Since anyone who pays any
> attention to my notes on this thing, I means reads them, knows my opinions
> of who we are as homo sapiens, where we come from, what actually occurred
> in history, etc., that wasn't the meaning of this note.
>
> Well, in a way, maybe.  The Annunaki, of Sumerian lore, after the bigtime
> gods, they had, curiously enough, 50, subgods.  And those They were
> called....the Watchers.
>
> Or were the Sumerian writers and intellectuals just....really paranoid?
>
>
>
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