Lell be little

[Bled Welder]

There were a number of unanimous strange things in that brief note on
paranoia.  Possibly none of which would interest one single human on the
planet, past or future.  But I'll try one:

Because Mike you mentioned my use of acctually (god I hope I got that
right).  I'll try to cut this short, for at least two, now three reasons.
 It, apperntotilissity, is nearing 6am, in 3 minutes, and I'm exhausted.  I
should really just go lie on my bed.  And second, clearly there is an
ethic, holy fuck, Bled, has ethics? Yes. We're all brilliant on here.  We
could all us ramble brilliantly incessantly unstoppably.  But I'm rambling
on, about me rambling, and now I'm still---stop it Michael!

What?  Oh right, Mike you were on about acctuable, and two things, I
usually only right on this thing fairly buzzed on alcohol, often even
completely hammered.  Morris spare me your insights.

What was it, Shakespeare, who said some clever thing about many a truth
wrought from mispellings?  And gods being the inventors of words?  Of
course you Pynchonites are not the sweetest of crowds.  I mean try being
clever on a site that is about a man who is a literary genius.

Anywhose. In my previous note on paranoia, I said ""paraoia"", and normally
I would let it go but that email was serious and Mike you were inquiring
about my word US-age, I felt I might cleverify.

It looks like I was "making" sum "poin"t or plaything on or about, of,
paraoia, but that one, because, *that* one, was a mistep, mispoken, and I
don't on this occasion want you to be mistaken.



On Sun, Jan 27, 2013 at 5:49 AM, Bled Welder <bledwelder at gmail.com> wrote:

> Just a side note, this question has probably been batted around on here
> enumerous, enumberable times.  Eons.
>
> If "paraoia" happens to be....true--is it paranoia?  Or is it just
> paranoia to, in this case, people who don't know the truth?
>
> I mean without getting into systems of power, without injecting your ,own
> epistemology onto the topic, what qualifies as paranoia?  Is it, well this
> goes to power, I was initially trying for something more lofty, loftier, is
> paranoia a thought that which the power of society does not officially
> acknowledge?
>
>
> On Sun, Jan 27, 2013 at 5:21 AM, Bled Welder <bledwelder at gmail.com> wrote:
>
>> I came onto this thing, a year ago.  In the interym, I have spent a large
>> portion of time, tyme, thyme, in jail.  I do not, smoke or in any way
>> injust, crystal or cocaine.  I   do not have an angle.  Aye, mate, do not
>> manipule fucking late people.
>>
>> But I am being Siriusly, like with a 50 solar light pound hammer, and I'm
>> hammered, I shed (no light), half not, by 100, said that.  I've not had a
>> drink in five hours.  Okay four.  Fourment.  Ferment.  Torment.  What's the
>> term.  Investigated.  I am being very, Siriusly, watched.  Something, is
>> attempting to control, my mind.  And actions.  The thing is, when They talk
>> to me, They say They are only trying to help me.  But They come into my
>> mother's house, and go into my bedroo, my sanctuary, etc.
>>
>> The thing is, I'm not a normal person.  For one thing, I'm really,
>> really, ridiculoiudly, really, absurdly, really fucking good looking.
>>  This, then, in itself, causes suspicioun.  I'm a suzzpekt.  *Unless*,
>> They are who They say they are.
>>
>> But *then*, I'm two Further items, addshownly.  I'm personalitly wise,
>> not particularly average either.  Then I'm fairly smart.  And then, three,
>> one more, I don't, let's say, I'm not prone to modesty.  Christian baboon
>> niceness.
>>
>> I am a fucking *god*.
>>
>> But here's the thing.  Are the creatures who are watching me, are They
>> mere mortals, or are They....*here*?
>>
>> Obvuisly, seriously, nobody who is not utterly, in utero, programmed,
>> anyone who is not entirely hypnotized ex nihilio guttero, gutter-brained,
>> knows, who are creatures with *vision*, who can see, that we were *given* our
>> consciousness, this civilization.  Plato, Aristotle, *knew* this.  Where
>> did Plato get his sources.....from?  It takes *no* brain, to understand
>> this.  None.  To figure out what the Giza plateau *is*.
>>
>> If you entertain, for one fucking second, that I'm deluded...---you're a
>> stupid animal.  You are a demented mortal.  You are a chimpanzee.
>>
>> So.  Where was I?  Oh yes.  These notions, and giving with them my mind
>> and it's personality, and then too, my fizzikal perfection, because I also
>> frequent the gym, and eat right, and take vitamins and supplements, and you
>> get what was, the Feds coming into my mother's house.
>>
>> Oh also, no wait, before I get to the whole point I began this rant
>> about, this coming to terms:  They are on this list.  They are Watching.
>>
>> I got his postcard, litrally a postcard, hand adreesed and signed by the
>> sherrif, informing me that there is a warrant for my arrest in his county.
>>  Okay, the thing about this is, I don't even, have never heard, of this
>> county.
>>
>> What is this, Friday, or Saturnday?  Anyway, the postcard, fair enough, I
>> think it actually arrived Thursday, maybe even WEsday, I don't normly pick
>> up the mail, and when I do I don't particullrly pay attention to it, and so
>> if something striking occurs, it's, goes through, the hands of this old
>> woman who claims to be my mother.  Of course she's my mother.  Who was my
>> father, that's the question.  The postcard said that I have to call that
>> county office before then, and that the warrant will be prosucted on the
>> first on March.
>>
>> Anyway, I'm on parole, and I don't even know what county this is coming
>> from.  It's somewhere in Kansas.  I grew up in a very nice suburb of Kansas
>> City, but my suburb is on the Kansas side.  I lived my adult life in SF,
>> LA, and NYC, all of which I love, and I have zero interest in being back in
>> Central City with my mother.  Zilch.
>>
>> The maybe humus side is that, since I've been back to Central City, I've
>> been either in jail or on parole.  When you're on parole....you can't leave
>> the city. My family all went to Vegas for Christmas....I had to stay here,
>> alone.
>>
>> That last couple paragraphs sounded pathetic.  I don't want empathy.  I
>> could use some, but that wasn't the point.  Since anyone who pays any
>> attention to my notes on this thing, I means reads them, knows my opinions
>> of who we are as homo sapiens, where we come from, what actually occurred
>> in history, etc., that wasn't the meaning of this note.
>>
>> Well, in a way, maybe.  The Annunaki, of Sumerian lore, after the bigtime
>> gods, they had, curiously enough, 50, subgods.  And those They were
>> called....the Watchers.
>>
>> Or were the Sumerian writers and intellectuals just....really paranoid?
>>
>>
>>
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